Emotion

I've been going through a plethora of emotions lately, during the debate competition it was first extreme nervousness, then it changed to hilarity then disappointment, surprise, shock and just complete craziness. It was my first time experiencing the joy of winning and the fun of just talking crap this year, and it was refreshing. Being new and inexperienced, i didn't have much pressure on my shoulders, i felt lucky if i was able to complete my speech and jubilant if i could manage to scrape a win together with my teammates. Having the opportunity to go up against the creme De la creme of the secondary debate circle was a jaw-dropping experience.

It was then that we realized how extremely unprepared we were and how shallow our knowledge was, going up against them was a wake up call (not to say the rest weren't), but pitting our strengths against someone much much stronger made us know our limits and the areas we had to improve on. It was totally an experience which i will treasure among others in the short yet not quite short span of my secondary school life. Hopefully, we will be able to leap up to their standards in the near future and enjoy the wonderful emotion of VICTORY over them. ;-)

Next, moving on to the drum camp. WOW, it was an experience to behold. The team spirit was one of the best I'd ever experienced, compared to last year. This year's camp was a trillion times better and moving compared to the last. Maybe because its also my second year on the team, and naturally i would have a stronger sense of belonging and would be able to have more fun.

But, this was the first time my society has ever moved me to tears, not once, not twice but thrice!!! My seniors have this amazing capability to coax tears using their words, u feel the love and passion they harbor towards the team and its impossible to remain untouched. Their sacrifices for a single cause is so great that i could never imagine myself being in their position, doing the things they do.

Of all the seniors on the team, my leader was the greatest among them all, she placed all her hope on us, hoping that we could achieve what she had in mind. She sacrificed her all to help us get to where we are today, she lost her voice trying to guide us onto the right track but what she didn't lose was her faith. She had faith in us, even though we weren't the best or the brightest, she held hope that we could become like the rest. Thank you, for having faith even during the darkest hours, thank you for not living us to our own abandon, thank you for just being there for us and THANK YOU, FOR BELIEVING IN US.

This holiday was one of the best i have had, although i am currently freaking out over my tons of unfinished homework, i believe that it was worth it.

To believing,

cheers!

FF.

2009 & brand new 2010!

Well,this is the customary post that 99% of bloggers write, regarding how 2009 was like for them. And since i am free( until tomorrow), what better way to past time?

The year 2009 though disastrous for most, has actually been quite a good year for me. i think i will list out what happened during 2009 which made me feel this way. =)

1) I joined a new society, a fun one to boot! Though i deeply regret not joining it during form 1, i am still pleased with how i performed during extra curricular activities. Joining this has taught me to ignore what other people might have to say about a particular subject and just be daring enough to try it out for yourself. I never imagined myself joining the 24 seasons drum team, it was always made to sound like a very very tiring, tough and a 'boys' society. Considering my physique and limited musical abilities, i was seriously doubting how i would fare in such a physically demanding society. Surprisingly, the physical tests were quite ok for me, what actually had me stumped was the discipline and high level of practice one needs to go through in order to catch up. Being LAZY & a HABITUAL PROCRASTINATOR doesn't help much. My performance during society and the boot camp was rather lack lustre and i hope 2010 will give me a chance to redeem myself. =)

2) I improved my purata score by 0.2! A meagre sum, but considering the level of effort i put in, i am considerably pleased though i know there's lots more to work on. ;-)

3) I went TRAVELLING!!!!!!!! after experiencing travel drought for almost 3 years, i am damn happy that i managed to visit 3 countries this year! Maybe i will blog about my travels on another day =) I am praying very very very hard that the year 2010 will give me more opportunity to set foot on foreign soil! There's lots more to see out there and i seriously <3 TRAVELLING. =)

4) I made GREAT FRIENDS!!! all of them have been nothing but supportive, helpful, sincere and fun. I have never been as happy in my whole 8 years of school life=) and never have i encountered such beautiful and gracious human beings, my FRIENDS are what made 2009 one of the BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE.

5) I jogged 5km. For a good cause. And i feel quite proud of myself. ps: i didn't really jog la, it was something like a jog+ walk. ;-) It made me appreciate the beauty of kenny hills ( which where my dream house is located ;-) and it made me feel DAMN GOOD about myself. hehe.

6) I PERFORMED ON STAGE!!! and our performance won 2nd prize!! And this is coming from someone who used to have stage fright.Haven't completely conquered my fear, but don't worry, i will get there soon. =)

7) I pontenged school, i dunno why it makes 2009 awesome, its just something i did which i have never done in secondary school before. They even sent a letter to my house and i had to feign having H1N1 symptoms. ;-)

8) I started on TWITTER!!! Its damn addictive and informative! ,<3 it!!!

9) Last one now....hmm....I learned to appreciate time. coz time just passes so quickly, I started this blog bidding goodbye to year 2008 and now i am doing the same for 2009. A year gone is a year gone, no point brooding about past regrets and things left undone. All we can do is try to right our wrongs, do what we left undone and achieve better things in the year to come.

So even though its a bit overdue, I am officially bidding adios to 2009! May all my dreams come true in the new year ahead! =)

xoxo,
Chocochocomonster.

New Year Resolutions =)

I know i have basically faded into oblivion since my last post which was eons ago, so sorry for that. To redeem myself i have decided to write about my 2010 New Year Resolutions, for 2 reasons. 1) i blog too little?? lol. just wanna find something to write if not my writing skills will get rusty and i am joining my sch's editorial board next year( as a small helper only la), so must polish them up!! heehee =) 2) by sharing my resolutions online, that means its harder to back out lo, if not it will be very EMBARRASSING. i have got quite a big ego, so as to not bruise it, this blog post will spur me to achieve my goals . lol. very lame excuse, but no choice, as i am quite lame. haha =)

Ok, cutting to the chase, below are the 10 new year sesolutions i have set for myself and i hope to achieve it in the new year 2010. =) wish me luck!

1) i WANT to get straight A's for my PMR & JUEC exams!!!
Altogether 15 A's coz i am dropping ART in my JUEC, heehee ;-)

2) to achieve that i need to STUDY right? so my next resolution is to set a good study plan and abide to it( minus all the PROCRASTINATION & LAZINESS) ps: this will be the hardest! 0.O*fingers crossed in fervent prayer*

3) pull my purata up to 83-85%, this will require me to complete resolution number 2, lol. subjects i need to work on are : a) MATHS( algebra+ geometry) b) BIOLOGY c) PHYSICS d) BM
phew, gotta really buck up.

4) Learn FRENCH, must be able to pass lvl 1 and progress on to basic user lvl 2. no slacking on this!!

5) Improve my chess skills. PRACTICE MORE....!

6) If i have the time, maybe take up Japanese again =) Japanese guys are too cute la. haha

7) Excel in extra curricular activities( 24 seasons drums ), maybe join the debate team?? editorial board etc. Be a more responsible and reliable person. Take on more challenges?

8) Finish 40 books in the whole year, fiction & non fiction.( english + mandarin + bm? ) haha
And exercise more!!! become more active. haha.

9) Try my best to overcome my shyness, and change to be someone more bold, outspoken and adventurous. =) Take the initiative to make new friends and be more sociable =D

10) ok ok, last one d. Overall, just be a better person than i was before. Create more joy among my friends & contribute more to society =) ( this is most important)

OK, thats it for 2010. Thanks for reading and i really hope u enjoyed reading it.

PEACE OUT.
Marie =)

Things

The last day of school for me this year.

I wish i could have done things better, achieved a little bit more of my goals, been a better person, friend. But in the end, dreams turn to dust and i am back to square one.

Still that same old person who isn't good enough, who isn't brilliant enough and who just doesn't match up to others. I hate that feeling of defeat, but i have done nothing to change that, thats why i hate myself sometimes.

Just a daydreamer who dreams and dreams and dreams again. I feel inadequate, and that feeling just won't go away. I just want to change, be someone who i can bring myself to love, not some loser who spends so much time drawing castles in the air. I want to build those castles, and live in them someday.

So here's to a better Marie Lim Shu Fei, cheers=)

I'M BACK!!!!

lol.....the title explains everything. I think i am gonna start blogging pretty often now, because i want to hone my writing skills..hehe=)

As 90% of this planet knows already that our beloved King of POP has gone to Neverland, here's wishing him peace and happiness on his journey beyond death(if it really exists). He brought joy to billions of people worldwide regardless of age, race or gender. Even though he never really experienced happiness, i think he would have no regrets after accomplishing such an amazing success. I LOVE YOU MJ, YOUR MUSIC WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON IN MY HEART.

Resuscitation of my half dead blog...

Was surfing some great blogs filled with lovely pictures of limited edition and probably jaw droppingly expensive sneakers.....i found this strong urge to go and buy one but realised that an economic crisis is happening and we are supposed to SAVE, SAVE & SAVE somemore....haiz.....so I'll start SAVING to buy my dream pair of sneakers!!! hehe. ><.

Visited Namewee's blog too....his rap songs are pretty cool though not much music , the lyrics are actually kinda true....kudos to him for being so bold and daring to produce such 'diao' music. Malaysia needs more outspoken individuals like him to voice out opinions....then only can improve ma.....right???

Lol....am at a loss for words now, to prevent myself from being a rambling, boring old drab.....so----
Adios!

I HATE PAS

AKU BENCI PAS, WO TAO YAN PAS, NGOR TOU YIM PAS............

Ban this ban that, HELLO! .....if u don't like rihanna so much ma DON'T go to her concert la!!!!
WHY must force other people to stay at home with you???? Very shuang ah?
People a bit sexy then ngam ngam cham cham.....worst than my grandmother.....people hot ma....want to loosen a few buttons also cannot. BLOODY HELL......who is pas to dictate what performers can or cannot wear??????????

Go to hell la....stupid islamic activists.....as if the bloody world is theirs and must listen to them.....
Got this link from kennysia's blog :THIS

Somehow.....they manage to find a way to relate rihanna to the war in Gaza....damn geng right?

If they are so anti-America....go stay in timbuktu la.....i am sure they must possess something made in America.....bloody hypocrites....

FYI, i am not anti muslim, just anti stupid, imposing and brainless fools like the idiots in PAS or UMNO or anybody else la who claim that all they are doing is for "the greater good & to promote islamic values & crap like that"

Sorry if i offended anybody,
Ciao.